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Week Thirteen- Apparently a list no matter what I do with formatting.

  1. Ridiculously short post here. Mainly because l’m kind of crazy busy in both mind and life with things to do before we go away next Monday. Camping. In Queensland. 
  2. Many of the things I am busy with are, at the very least, Pintrest inspired so there will be a huge stonking post full of things. But not while I’m still doing them.
  3. Here are just a couple of little things- plus I’ve added some photos to the previous post.

    This morning I made bub some pants to go with her good dress. I’d used this pin earlier in the week with polar fleece to make some PJ pants to take away and it was so quick and easy. I forgot I was using very light Indian cotton. It took a little longer than expected. 

    Look very closely on the bottom right- shirring.

    My favourite part? Spontaneous shirring of the cuffs (which I learnt from this pin) worked beautifully.

    I’ve also been coming across a lot of these

     pins of late. I adore them. I’m in love with language so finding new words is always a wondrous thing.

    Here are a few of my particular favourites.


    Because I am

    Wish me luck in my sewing/couriering/shopping/driving/train riding week.

    I may post while away- I aim to. If not there will be make up posts upon my return.  Meanwhile look for me in the interstice.

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    Week Eleven. Remembering.

    Right now I can’t for the life of me remember what I was going to write about… 

    This week has gone so quickly.

    We made Anzacs (as we always do) and danced in the kitchen to Missy Higgins 

    I adore the painting on the right but photo for recognitions sake.

    (Bub especially loves this song, and now sings the chorus – well part of it. Calls it the Anzac Song.  I especially love this  song- being a frustrated artist)

    Truth be told I love all of her music and have a particular soft spot for this . Its especially good after arguments with people you love.

    Which happens when they misplace things when you moved house in Febuary and still have no idea where they are. (Yes, I am looking at you, Big M) So that ate up some week.

    Then there was this STUPID AND IDIOTIC “postal survey” (plebiscite makes more sense- thought up by plebs. Anyone else do Latin at school? Anyone?) announced in Australia. It has made me rather upset. The amazing and brilliant Tim Minchin sums it up best here and quite simply I believe this :-

    Anyway. There was that.

     I also did a spot of sewing- we’re going to my cousins wedding in September up in QLD and I’m s-l-o-w-l-y making my way through a pages long to do list (mostly pin inspired).

    At the top is “Make E’s Wedding Dress” and yes, we all had a good laugh at that one.

    I wanted to make her something that reminded her of a Sari as she often asks to wear one (her passion for Bollywood undimmed)

    After looking at so, so, so many patterns for dresses for babies and toddlers. I found this one. For a reversible wrap top. 

     (Actually first I found this 

    but I really didn’t want to pay for a pattern and the handy image search corner thing found the top for me).

    So I printed out the pattern, then traced it onto baking paper and made it longer and cut it out of some beautiful but very thin Indian cotton I had bought on eBay and some equally beautiful broderie anglais. Also from eBay.

    After thinking about it overnight I realised two things. 1. That they would not work as a lining for each other and 2. That I’d cut out one too few front prices and that would have looked very wrong. (One shoulder wrap dress on toddler. Not good)

    So the next day I cut out another front piece from the cotton and some lining from Calico and tried to pin it all together. Discovery of the week- pins are like hair elastics- they vanish.

    Anyway- I was being careful and taking my time so, yes, the next day I sewed it all together following the instructions – which are actually quite simplre I’d imagine especially so for a slightly more experienced seamstress.

    I ended up with a dress which looked okay on the Indian cotton side and lovely on the calico. I hung it up overnight as apparently this helps with hemming.

    That night I thought again and realised my mistakes. 

    The next day I fixed them (sew all edges except the bottom hem first, then seam the sides with the fabric you like least outwards).

    I even used a decorative stitch.

    Tried it on Bub, hemmed it. Done. One wedding dress that I don’t have a finished picture of. Although here is the next best thing- pre hemming and adding of ties:-

     I will have a “proper” picture though- when I finish the pants to go underneath it and make the front panel end in a curve not a point and I’ll put it here 

    And now, of course, I’ve remembered what we did do that was new….but we haven’t finished it yet, so that will have to wait for next week.

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    Week 9 The Monsters in our Heads

    I want to curl up and watch “2 Penttutikal” but this blog keeps snapping at the back of my mind like my childhood Australian terrier and our postman (yup- my dog used to actually chase (And bite) the postman)

    I have (amongst other things) PTSD. That is one of the few boxes I’ve been put in that made sense. 

    Big M my its-so-bloody-complicated-and-not-for-this-post is my Carer.

    If we didn’t have kids, people might see things differently.

    If I had physical therapy, was in a wheel chair or had a cast, people might see things differently.

    If I was vomiting from radiation or even just had a run of nasty virus'(knock on all wooden objects within sight) people might see things differently –less likely in this medicate and get on with it world but still…

    If every day Big M got up and went to someone else’s house dressed in a snazzy polo shirt with a logo, while a different person in said snazzy polo shirt came here, people might see things differently.

    Just look at those snazzy button up shirts (nothing against outside care at all- people who do this as a job ROCK)

    As it is we are two stay at home parents ( to most)

    To some : I’m not doing brilliantly, he’s my Carer but – so?

     To very few we are both coping – Big M with a 18/7 job and I with being a full time Mum with PTSD, ANA, GAD and BPD (plus even more abbreviations irrelivant to this post).

    These people are few and far between (And much appreciated)

    On a bad day Big M isn’t even one of them.

    On a bad day caring for me isn’t a job or responsibility – it’s a hinderence.

    On a very bad day I offer to get in another Carer or leave so he can manage others expectations and his wants and I can look after what bub and I need.

    It’s been a very bad week.

    Because in my mind- and in  some others I’m meant to just cope when this bugger of a disease interferes withmy plans and thus their plans either for me, Big M or my children.

    I’m fairly sure no one would tell an obstetrician they should have skipped the birth of one of their patients because it meant they and their partner who had to stay home for the kids missed a dinner party.

    I can imagine the conversation:

    “But couldn’t you have just ignored your pager? I checked you were coming three days ago and you said yes!. Surely you could just have just ignored her? And I can’t believe Matt didn’t turn up- toddlers are okay on their own”

     Ok – appalling example but thats because there isn’t one that matches.

    There is nothing quite like the hell of being told what you can and cannot do by experiences you lived half a life ago that won’t leave you alone.

    The irony of a disorder that makes you desperate for contact with people but then finding it impossible to cope with.

    And then that people resent you for needing the supports you have put in place – it’s like that thing in primary school where everyone wanted a go on the crutches when someone sprained their ankle. Except no one gives them back when the bell rings.

    I just wish everybody knew I’m doing the best that I can but that my absolute best will always always be reserved for my youngest, then the rest of my little lot.

    I wish they could be understanding. Hell, I just wish they were okay with it.

    And to anyone out there going through this- one person gets it. Just one voice but (trust me) better than none.

    Which is why if nothing else came out of this week at least I found pins like this one :

    And this one:

     And this one

    which led to this post.
     So there, task complete.

    Read on for some helpful info :

     

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    Week 8. Scrappy,  but good biscuits and toddler fun 

    So, no blog post yesterday. And no apology either. Truth be told I’m exhausted. 

    I don’t know if it’s winter or my ED or bub having her immunization reaction or “I’m a single mum with a daughter” (anyone else remember those black & white ‘women low in iron’ ads? Were they for red meat? Or just awareness…anyway. Advertising in the 90s rocked & 80s …. what went wrong? (Not that I watch commercial tv except in waiting rooms so I wouldn’t really know))

    So yes. Exhausted. And yesterday while bub napped I thought about writing but then, well, didn’t. 

    Because this week got away from me. I’ve browsed pins for clothing ideas (I adore Alia Bhatt) for ways to cover my hair when I go to the GP  ( being germ phobic is so much fun when you have to pick up a regular prescription) for baking ideas and for storage ideas for our Airbnb tent (& got eldest working on it- woot!)

     it’s also been a week where looking up things like this :

    featured a lot.

    Also it’s August. Considering semester started about three weeks ago and I’m tired of just scraping through assignment by assignment (I want an HD damn it! (For those not permanently studying HD= High Distinction = A or in the 90%s)) I thought maybe Pintrest might have some handy hints/ tips.

    This (and the discovery I have an assignment due next week) led to a wild Pintrest a thon on Sunday night.

     I found so many pins like this: 

      and subscribed to this :

      (honestly I got the information I needed from the pin but…you know…fellow blogger. The emails haven’t stopped. Yup- one of those) 

    Thus I was going to write a post on Pintrest and studying- then I realised while my assignment is due in a week that isn’t today and I won’t have used these pins by today.

     So that’s for next week.
    Then I thought I’d do a “self care” post because I’ve been looking up lots of pins about it over the last few months and self care seems the new “thing” (after paleo, yoga, jazzercise, pritikin diet…thats got me back to the 80s. Further I have no idea) 

    But have I used them yet? Have I even read them? Erm- no.
    Right – so that left me with a post on anzac biscuits  or shirring . 

     Because while I’ve looked at a lot of pins there isn’t anything that feels finished.

    So this is kind of an evaluation plus excellent biscuit plus actually surprisingly cool toddler activity post.

    Excellent Anzacs

    To anybody out there who doesn’t like Anzacs – try this recipe but use white sugar instead of brown. They will taste like brandy snaps.( If you do this Do not give them to your toddler. They will go mad)

    Anzacs are bubs cooking activity of choice at the moment. We’ve made them about four times in the last three weeks.  When offered an alternative  (“shall we make cake” “No- Anzac Biscuit “ which is so sweet and followed by please and she put those words together herself and the brilliant thing is they are quick, easy, relatively low sugar and it’s fine for kids to eat the mix – No egg)

    So yesterday we made Anzacs. 

    And it was fun. 

    And bub chose to be in her Baba Sling which is fantastic for cooking and short things like that. 

    Very nice way to spend the afternoon. And bub had “parfait” (yoghurt with anzac crumble and hidden fruit) for dinner. 

    I could walk you through the recipe- but I honestly didn’t take any photos & with such a simple recipe it feels a bit like the teacher who would give you a hand out then read it to you. Kind of pointless.

    * One thing though- aside from the sugar- best shaped with wet hands and also watch the time. I haven’t had a batch go the full time yet.

    Toddler Sensory and Other Development Things Activity.

    While I was hectically trying to find a pin to do yesterday afternoon during bubs nap that wasn’t baking and wasn’t sewing I struck upon the idea of a toddler activity. 

    Apparently you will always have either pom poms or pipecleaners at home- just lying around- as you do.

    (Bub woke up at this point and thus began a great chorus of “No Pom pom, no pipe cleaner. Oh no!” which provoked a lot of laughter but no activities)

    The problem is (aside from the pompom pipecleaner dilemma- do people from America smoke a lot of pipes?) lots of activities were a part of lists and I wouldn’t have felt like I’d done that pin unless I finished the list.

     

    We ended up with moon sandplaydough or this: 

    When I told Big M about it (wonder if that psudonym will stick) the phrase “And then what”? May have been used.

     So I wasn’t going to do it. 

    Being the self confident person I am.

    Instead I was aiming for this: 

     later in the afternoon.

    But you know- a toddler to amuse in the kitchen, an oncoming headache – it’s pasta, it’s cheap, its quiet; why not let her play with it. 

    I started bub off with some patty pans and a handful of rigatoni (I think..bumpy big macaroni) and asked her to help by putting the pasta in the patty pans. She was having so much fun with that I got out a straw. Now- notice the straws in the screenshot? Not see through. Also the pasta is decidedly larger than the straw.

    Our straws are clear and the pasta just JUST fit on them.

    After a lot of “mummy help please” and “are you sure you want to” “yes” I was so proud of bub when she took a piece of pasta off then put it back on a straw.

    I then struck upon the idea of bamboo skewers – do I have to say “ supervise your child if they are doing this activity – especially if you give them a thin pokey bit of wood- even with the point cut off” in headmistressly tones? 

    Thought not.

     Good.

    They worked so well and she was so happy and so so proud putting pasta on and taking it off.

    At around this time we had everything set up for the biscuits (did I say this was to entertain her while we did some dishes and got ingredients out to make Anzacs? – it was) but bub didn’t want to stop.

    When the skewers ended up on the floor, eldest and I struck upon the idea of spaghetti at exactly the same time .

    This was the best yet. It would have been better had it not been thin spaghetti but you work with what you have and bub loved snapping the spaghetti as much as threading on to it.

    It all ended about half an hour after we started with bub hiding the pasta in the seat of her high chair and pockets of her tabard (apron) before asking to do “cooking now”
    So if you have a toddler who is restless but not tired or just want something a bit different to do with them- try this.
    It’s parent involvement heavy (my way was anyway) but so much fun. You might also want to try a shoelace in place of straws. I think it would work.

    So there we go. I did complete a pin after all.

    (I also used this one after realising every new paragraph in this blog started with “so”)